Happy New Year!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Okay it's the new year and I am looking for new things.  Who isn't.  We all get that ooey, gooey happy feeling at the first of the year.  We (our church) are doing a consecration for 21 days.  This is a time to read your bible, fast something, and spend time in prayer.  Our pastor talked about fire.  How it burns everything out that you don't want and everything that you don't need.  Spiritually, I really feel like I am going through the fire.  Not so much that I am just really going through, but when you have to give up something you love your flesh is so ugly.  I am upset and people are really getting on my nerves and it takes a lot for me to get upset with people.  So they are really pushing my buttons.  It seems like the devil always uses somebody to push your buttons when you are doing your best to follow God.  Or maybe when we don't have something to soothe the savage beast we really see what is inside of us.  I usually don't let what people do get to me but today I mumbled under my breath and said "you are getting on my nerves" in reference to someone WHO WAS GETTING ON MY NERVES.

This person that did it, true was overstepping her bounds and because she wasn't involved in a decision that was made I am sure she wants to ride in like the hero and get all the glory for fixing what she exclaims to be a "BIG PROBLEM".

Anyway, there are other things that are making me act unseemingly and I don't like what is coming out of my flesh.  I think I need to consecrate until I am really clean.  Until I don't have an issue with people and I walk in the love of God no matter what.  You know you are a little off your game when you start raising your voice to your children (screaming)! 

Anyway I don't like the things I am seeing and I really want to be a good example of Christ.  I want to walk in righteousness and I want the presence of God to show himself strong in my life.  I have a ways to go before I can really be called a choice servant of God.  But I really want to get there.  I want to walk in the love and power of God with all my heart.  My pastor always says, "The proof of desire is in the pursuit".  I haven't been pursuing as much as I should.  I need to pursue the "Righteousness of God" with all my being.  I want to be counted worthy of the calling and the salvation that God has so graciously and freely given and bestowed upon me.  He is truly "Worth it All". 

But seek ye first the Kingdom of God and his Righteousness and all these things will be added unto you.
Matt. 6:33